Hard time killing floor blues

Hard times here and everywhere you go,
time's harder than ever been b'fore,

And the people are driftin', from door to door,
can't find heaven,no matter where they go,

Say you got money,you better be sure,
these hard times will drive you from door to door

Makin' it look easy is tough all the more,
I'm still knockin' on heaven's door

You better take care now, where you go,
you might just end up mopping the floor

Train(s) of thought

Acknowledgement: The following post is guilty of shameless plagiarism.The idea is inspired by Kaushik's orkut profile.He's changed it now,though,so I feel pretty saintly being honest about it.

Ok this happens to me nearly everyday during most lectures.I can't focus in class.Absofuckinlutely not!It has been happening since the first sem,but this sem,my 6th,has seen me scaling new heights in lack-of-concentration-in-class.This is how my mind usually plays tricks on me.

Venue:Lecture hall 11,mostly
One of the Profs is blabbering away.Say Dr.Mazumdar.I'm taking his example because he's so loud in class that even the most sleepy souls can't catch forty winks.Not that I ever sleep during lectures.Nope,thats the other problem.I am as awake as,well,any fully awake person(I thank Scott Adams for inhibiting my ability to quote appropriate analogies).
Anyway,the point is,if I can daydream in this lecture,the rest of the Profs don't really stand a chance.

A typical train of thought: (Song playing in head)Whooo are you,who who,who who?Who the fuck are you,who who,who who? Man!If Pete Townshend isn't God,I don't know who God is!Wonder if my band members will ever agree to cover The Who songs.Probably not,they're already on an overdose of Floyd. Vinny will kill me if I mention more classic Rock'n'Roll.Hmmm...what bands does that genre really spawn?Rolling Stones is probably the flagship band.Actually,it sounds pretty similar to The Who. And Floyd? can never be sure about their genre.But who cares? They're Gods anyway.Huh,what?Oh shit,he asked a question.What the fuck is going on anyway?Alternative Iron making,shit!Gawd!what did I do to deserve this?Oh,he's coming this way.If you're there,God,now is the time to prove it.Phew!he asked Neerav.Well,Okay I'm beginning to get convinced.Concentrate,man,concentrate!
Now what is Hiran asking?How would I know?Nishant seems to have an idea.How is he so attentive in class?Shit,people are writing copious amounts of stuff.When did he say all this?
Well,there goes more photocopy money flying!Money,so they say,Is the root of all evil today!
I can never get how Money is Floyd's only top 20 hit in the US? That is another reason for me to believe that Americans are assholes.But they make some great movies.Ooh man,The Shawshank Redemption. Why didn't it win an Oscar?Oh yea,the Americans are assholes!Gotta watch Mystic River asap.Once I get over with this goddamn quiz!Oh,shit!got practice tonight.But Panty isn't coming.So probably we'll just do Highway to Hell.Phat jayegi yaar!The chorus part is so fuckin high.Lets see if Vishnu can help me out with it.Will junta come to see a rock show here?Hmm,maybe we'll put up the list of songs a few days before the show.Smoke on the water,Highway to Hell,Run like Hell ought to draw some crowd at least.
How much time left?10 more minutes!Lets see what's going on.Hmmmm......no idea.
Arre yaar,gotta prepare at leats one good dance before the sem ends.The boys really want to take a team to other colleges.Oh,the prize money for Groovin.Gotta talk to Pathak today.
Will we be able to go to Allahabad for Gnosiomania?Well,Dube and Shahi are ready.Not sure about Mandu though.Lets see if Nishant and Barsaiyan agree.It'll be fun if they do.
Just 2 more mins,hmm...120,119,118,117......

You get the picture,don't you?

Get busy livin',or get busy dyin'

'What're ya watching,dude?'

'Ahem!The Shawshank Redemption'

'Fir se?launda pagla gaya hai'
Translation: 'Again?he has lost his marbles'


Gotta get over it.But I can't,really can't.Why do I love the movie?Oh there must be plenty of reasons.Everybody loves it,after all.It's a nine-fuckin-pointer on IMDb,so I guess it would have been more of a worry if I didn't like it.But no,it's not just that.There must be something special about it.But I can't figure it out,even after watching it for,what,the 23rd time?I donno,stopped counting long back.
The triumph of human spirit?Yeah thats a good one.That's the message right?

Get busy livin,or get busy dyin.
Goddamn right!Can that be the reason?Maybe a depressed soul like me enjoys uplifting experiences.No,it doesnt uplift me.It reaches inside me and gets hold of my guts and shakes me so bad it takes me forever and more to get over the experience.I'm no Andy Dufresne,nor can ever be.He is meticulous to a fault,calm,composed,at complete ease with his surroundings.But not institutionalized.

These walls are kind of funny. First you hate 'em, then you get used to 'em. Enough time passes, gets so you depend on them. That's institutionalized. They send you here for life, that's exactly what they take. The part that counts, anyways.

I've come across fellas who found movie far too slow till the escape part.This was what I was told before I watched it for the first time.A good movie that gets amazingly exciting towards the latter part.Hell,I don't need exciting! Not if the non-exciting part is even remotely close to this.
I'm getting tired of exciting stuff.It's too early,I know.It might also be valid to say that I really haven't done much exciting stuff.I don't know.And I don't care.To me,Zihuatanejo appears a nice place to be,as compared to say,Las Vegas.

Zihuatanejo.
say what?
Zihuatanejo.It's in Mexico,a little place on the Pacific Ocean.You know what the Mexicans say about the Pacific?
No.What?
They say it's got no memory.Thats where I want to spend the rest of my life.A warm place with no memory.
Zihuantanejo.

And the music.The movie has a fantabulously haunting background score.Especially during the escape sequence.That in fact,may be one of the reasons why I've watched the movie so many times.Well at least the last two times can be accounted for.Everytime I need to listen to the score,I have to watch the movie again.To begin with,its only that part.But then I start with selecting particular scenes,which isn't an intelligent thing to do when you love every single scene in the movie.And that's how it has come to be....
That's the beauty of music.They can't get that from you.Haven't you ever felt that way about music?
You bet I have.

It's a romance,really.I'm sure Dr.Neelakanthan would agree.Being in touch with the actual and the imagined,inner self and outer self.That's what I was told most recently about romance.
Isn't that what the movie is about?or at least Andy's character.I'm sure it is.He lives in the prison like a free man.
Here's where it makes the most sense. You need it so you don't forget. Forget that there are places in the world that aren't made out of stone. That there's a - there's a - there's something inside that's yours, that they can't touch.

They can't touch.....no they can't.

No sanity,please!we are humans

It's scary.The world is running out of sane people,though I am inclined to think its not exactly a novel phenomenon,but I'm realizing it these days more than ever.Probably I'm insane in my own way(Oh thats a terribly diplomatic statement.I hate it,but I'm using it more and more these days.Respecting others' points of view is a tough job,and this is a handy tool).
It would be a valid question to ask,what in Jesus-fuckin-Christ's name is sanity anyway?Oh I just made an offensive statement,didn't I? Now even as the christian fundamentalists will be baying for my blood for using their prophet's name in a derogatory manner,the preservers of hindu culture will be offended by the fact that I used a christian deity's name in the first place.Well,while I'm at it,let me go ahead and seal my fate completely.I think it is plain stupid for all the muslims of the world to raise in protest against some cartoons published in a newspaper with miniscule readership and no standing at all.Did they ever stop to think that if they had spared us the protests,probably nobody would have noticed the cartoons anyway? I am also sick and tired of Hindus raising in protest whenever anything remotely resembling their 50 million deities is portrayed in an insulting manner.And anyway,I have hated christian guts as long as I can remember.It is the most blatantly hypocritical religion there can ever be.
Other followers,don't start feeling too smug about yourself,I hate all religions.I hate the very concept.I hate anything that is a reason to hate anyone else.yea that sounds contradictory,I know.But I can't help it.If hating extremist points of view is an extremist point of view in itself,so be it.